binun'..

GOD.. tell me who's lying..??

kenapa ada org jahat seh di dunia ini..?

a. ( karena klo ga ada org jahat 'dra.. namanya bukan 'dunia'...)

b. ( karena kalo ga ada org jahat.. ntar neraka kosong dooonk..)

c. ( karena kalo ga ada orang jahat, polisi ga ada kerjaan..)

d. ( karena kalo ga ada org jahat.. u wont learn how to forgive.. )

e. ( semua jawaban diatas benar..)

pheeeeeew..-_-'

mungkin bisa nyadar..

tidak peduli apa pendapat anda tentang usia yang matang untuk punya hubungan serius.. dan menikah..

saya tidak mau ternyata resepsi saya nantinya jadi ring tinju.. atau arena debat kusir !!

terserah anda mau merasa benar..

terserah anda mau merasa bahwa anda punya prinsip..

tapi anda harus tahu ..

apa yang anda anggap sebagai prinsip, benar, konsekuen..

tanpa anda sadari... membuat banyak orang terluka,

dan anda mengorbankan kebahagiaan mereka...

profesi kedokteran..

i saw a quote on a doctor' s desk...

" profesi kedokteran menjanjikan usaha, tapi tidak menjanjikan hasil.."

yaah, kadang2 orang suka berharap lebih.. too much..

tapi dokter yang paling jenius sekalipun ga ciptain dirinya sendiri..

if i could give a guarantee..

i won't let my mom and my granpa died..

it's harder for us to see the fact that we can't help someone we love..

that we can't avoid the death..

we know how human body works..

but still... it's not ours..

a person who can give you a lesson of 'forgiveness'..

according to..me.. there's no human being can give a role model of forgiveness..

since it's the most.. most.. difficult lesson that i've learned in my 24 years of life..

NO ROLE MODEL..
mungkin karena itu juga, knp setelah manusia pertama bikin dosa, jauuuuuh setelah itu baru ada ' salvation ' ?? maybe ??

salvation begins with forgiveness.. there won't be any salvation without forgiveness..

i DONT believe in every human being that consider him/herself as a merciful person... there's nobody born with a merciful character. Forgive someone as soon after he/she made a mistake n hurt u...?? yeaah.. rite..

that's why.. i made a decision..
i dont take any lesson from other.. dont dare to teach me.. n talk to me about forgiveness.. coz i'll consider that as a bulls**t..

the one n only.. the perfect role model of forgiveness..
is GOD himself...

dont rewind..just grateful..

mungkin kalo gw bisa minta waktu balik lagi..

rewind my life..

apa itu brarti gw ga bersyukur ya??

kayanya deh.. karena gw akan minta rewind teruuuus..

back to the times when i was a child..

ga pernah dimarahin..

selalu punya keyakinan kalo si kecil ini bakal jadi dokter..

selalu bangga..

selalu sayang..

back to the times when i was a BIG child..

tetep ga pernah dimarahin..

tetep punya keyakinan kalo si anak mau gede ini bakal jadi dokter..

tetep bangga..

tetep sayang..

back to the times when i was a teenager..

tambah ga pernah dimarahin karena dianggap uda mulai gede..

tambah yakin kalo ABG ini bakal jadi dokter..

tambah bangga..

tambah sayang..

apapun bwat dia..

back to the last few years..

selama seumur hidup.. ternyata ga pernah dimarahin..

sekarang uda hampir jadi dokter.. ga diragukan lagi.. ..

beneran bangga..

selalu sayang..

akhirnya..

back to the last few months..

i hope i can spend more times..

i hope i was there..

for the last one breath..

for the millions breath u've spend for loving us...

for the millions walk u've spend to taking care of us..

i wish that i can rewind those very last minutes..

24 years 13 days 13 hours 15 minutes,

GOD let me to have you in my life...

cant find any better reason to be more grateful...

with luv..

if u dont want to loose it, then dont belong it..

thanks GOD i received this man in my life..
painfully.. but i'll try to understand why he passed away..

damn hard, but i'll try to believe the best thing had happened..

luv u, grandpa..